It has almost been 8 years of our ‘Marriage’ and now we both stand together probably only united in wanting a ‘Divorce’. Thinking about it, what terrible words – Marriage and Divorce?!!? When we first got married, I am sure – we never even thought of separation. However, the way things have been moving – this is probably the best thing that could happen to either of us. I thought I must tell you a few things before we are going to be legally cut off.
First of all, THANK YOU very much. You gave me a chance to step out of my country and tread in a foreign land. You gave me a chance to learn about different cultures and visit a lot of places. You gave me a chance to be financially independent. You gave me a chance to serve your family. You gave me a chance to come back home to my family. You gave me a chance to pursue all of my interests. You gave me a chance to love you completely. You gave me a chance to be myself. THANK YOU very much. And, I truly did love you, at one point of time.
I understand that things have gotten completely out of our hands – but then it is certainly gone beyond repair as well. There is surely no looking back at all. Swami, as you are now set to lead a new life, I wish you come across the right kind of people. I wish you have adequate chances to grow and you make use of them. I wish you the very best in anything that you do.
You know what, I am really sorry that your life with me did not turn out the way you might have imagined, but the same goes with me as well. This is certainly not the way I wanted to lead my life. So while knowing for certain that separation is good, I want to apologise that I could not commensurate your expectation. I am sorry that I could not give us both a ‘child’. There have been times that I wanted to have a child with you, but then….looking back, I’m glad it didn’t happen. Really Sorry!
In the past, there might have been multiple events where I may have hurt you – knowingly or unknowingly. I want to take this chance to ask for forgiveness for everything that I did to hurt you. Swami, it certainly was not my intention to hurt you. I really loved you very very much for me to hurt you. However all that I can tell you now is – I AM SORRY! I merely tried to bring the best in you. I think you are far more capable than what you are now. Live life well Swami. You will feel happier.
It was my deepest desire that you make good friends for yourself. I wanted you to read a lot and improve your knowledge about just everything. I wanted to have sensible conversations with you. I wanted you to be simply the best. I really wanted all of this….but I guess, your needs and ideas of life were different. Life is very short Swami. Make most use of all the available opportunities in making your life more valuable. I want to tell you so much more….but then, am finding it difficult to express. Words are not helping me out here…
As we now part ways, I feel very sad that I have failed as a ‘wife’. But what comforts me is that I have NOT failed as a good human being and I think that is more important. When people ask me why I have opted for a Mutual Divorce, I tell them… “Swami is a beautiful person and so am I. However, it is a pity that we are not that beautiful when we are together as a couple…”
If at any point of time in your life, you need someone to talk to, remember “I am there.” I want to be your friend and will always be there for you. Trust me, I will always be your friend.
Dear Swami, here is wishing you the very best in your life, once again.
With lots of affection, regards and a warm hug –
Pree
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