I suddenly feel so burdened with life. Everything around me seems so weird and I am not honestly able to relate to anything happening around this physical body. I really yearn for that spiritual food - Yeah, that's what I totally need. I don’t know or cannot understand – well, I can understand and act in tune with mundane activities of a "normal" person but then why does my yearning for renunciation be more predominant than anything else? I just cannot understand. I am doing things around me that I really don’t need to be doing at all. However, I find no meaning or no joy whatsoever, in whatever I am doing. I feel like myself – lost, all alone, single, solitary, responsible and burdensome, heavy and really really all alone.
