The new found joy of marriage was evident in me. I enjoyed time spent with Work. Marriage only ensured that I had access to everything about Work. I wanted to know more about him and I did everything under the sun to be good to him. The more I discovered, the more hard he played to get. Work distracted me endlessly and had unknowingly ensured that all my other ties were subtly cut. Work had become my all. I sure was in the 'marital bliss' mode. The presence of Work in my life gave my life a renewed meaning.
Come April and I was stumped by another surprise. Thanks to all the 'over-time' sessions with Work, I was feeling strange lately. Work was beginning to expect more out of me. Every night used to be eventful. I enjoyed it thoroughly. I would hardly get time to sleep - Work made love to me without even giving me time for a breather! I decided to talk to my family doctor, Manager. After several consultations, one fine morning, Manager announced my pregnancy. I was thrilled. Work had now bestowed me with the purpose of my life. I was all the time in anticipation of this pregnancy, this jump in my life and finally we had nailed it. We had already decided the baby's name - she was to be called "Money"!
Money's entry into my life gave me a new identity. People now recognised me for my potential. Money became the apple of my eye. In the pursuit to nurse and raise my darling little Money, I left no stone unturned to please Work. I made sure that I had Work with me at all times. Night or day made no difference. Time moved swiftly. I think all mothers lose their identity raising their children. As Money grew, I soon realised that I lost mine. My presence made no difference to Work. There were more energetic and smarter people who grabbed his attention. I was needed by him, but I was not indispensable. But to me, he was.
Unknown to myself, I had lost my youth. Raising money, I had lost my identity. And today I stand a slave to Work. Money speaks volumes but I have no individuality. Money is the one that is wanted here and there. After Money, people look for Work. But the person that I am - is lost completely. I have now realised that both Work and Money did not give me happiness. I want to resign - from this worldly pursuit. I want to look at life more wholly, more completely beyond Work and Money.
Living life to the fullest is an incredible balancing act. It is like walking a high-wire at the circus. It takes a lotof practice to get things just right. If you lean too much one way or another then you’ll lose your balance. The trick is to find that equilibrium between the Work and Money that produces achievement and slowing down enough to appreciate the present. When we locate this fine line, then we have found our balance and theplace where we can experience higher quality, more meaningful living.
