Last Letter

P,
Phew - been a long day, just wrapped up my work. The bed looks inviting and my body aches, but wanted to write this email to you before I crash.
Ok. It looks like I am not going to be getting the call-log of my mobile after all.
As I told you a few days ago, I wanted to bring closure to this issue AFTER I had sent you the log. But looks like I am not getting that log.
I am writing this out of respect that I have for what we shared and for what it has meant to me in the past. 
I feel I had been treated very unfairly. I feel hurt that you chose to believe something about me without checking with me first. I am disappointed that you didn't have the courage to talk to me honestly about it. I am disappointed that you continued to pretend, perhaps even to yourself, that you "never doubted my integrity". I feel foolish for talking to you about what I was going through in my life.
As someone said, it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. This time I was lucky. I am afraid that the next time I won't be. One has to go through it to understand the pain and turmoil it causes.
I have always brought a high level of authenticity, compassion and empathy to every relationship. Perhaps you don't value these things. What has happened is gone, and no amount of wanting, wishing, or regret will undo or change what's already happened. However, I am finding it hard to accept that and move on.
In a way whatever happened may be for my good too - because it clearly helped me see people in perspective.
Please understand that I am NOT trying to blame you or be judgmental about what happened - I just want to tell you what I feel. So - I am not looking for a response or discussion or argument from you. I am not asking you to FIX anything. It's all about me and what I feel...
All I ask of you is not to get involved my life and I too will not get involved in yours. 
Wish you all the best,
- M